The Minute by Minute Evolution of Attitude

"We can also use the steps to improve our attitudes." ~ Just for Today p. 314

After yet again not doing my step work like I should I can definitely feel like my life is starting to derail a bit. My tooth is also hurting extremely bad lately. Side effects of being a meth addict I guess. *shrug* It hurts. Ow... :(

So this Just for Today is a really good one. I love the fact that it's basically saying what I've been saying for many months now: "The only real choice that you have is your own actions, and who you're friends with." You know I really think that making the decision to delete everyone out of my phone that was not Family, Work, or NA has helped me further myself in life. It's removed the temptation to hit someone up from my past and try to start back up with old habits.

Working Step One is a little difficult for me right now. I'm having issues with my room mate not cleaning his side of the room, and I'm having to check my attitude with the situation on a minute by minute basis sometimes. It's quite honestly gotten so bad that I'm just choosing not to care anymore. My attitude hasn't been the best lately and I can definitely tell that it's because I have been slacking in the areas that I need to focus on most.

Work has been extremely stressful lately as well. Going through the ServSafe training is tough. I'm definitely looking forward to the day that I become a manager however. It will be the greatest achievement so far in my life. I'm nervous about the responsibility portion of it though. I've been a crew chief before which is basically equivalent of the "head crew trainer", but never have I had the title of "Manager", in any form. I have to learn how to get better at dealing with conflicts at work and also keep reminding myself that I can not control other peoples actions.

I can't focus long enough to really finish this post because of my tooth. Attitudes. To put it simply, I need to focus on making sure that my ducks are in a row before I focus on other people's problems or issues. Ouch my fucking tooth. :(